My little princess

I haven’t been on here for so long, going back to work and moving house has kept me busy. 

Back to work wow that went fast! We’re only back part time but man I miss my days just being about me and her, she’s now 9months old when did that happen! 

Thea started to crawl last week she is also pulling herself up onto everything wanting to stand and walk around the furniture! My baby is not so little anymore 😦 

I love and cherish every second I get with her she’s so amazing I couldn’t of wished for more.  

We had a lovely first Christmas at home with our doggies. Koby was poorly though and we had to have him out to   after Christmas. 

We love our swimming lessons Thea is such a water baby!! She gets so excited when she sees the water bowl or its bath time.

Thea gives mummy kisses when I ask for one! She’s so cheeky though. 

    
    
    
 

26 weeks 5 days ( 20 weeks adjusted)

This is our last month of maternity leave, we start back to work on 2nd November. I am looking forward to seeing everyone and seeing as I won’t be leaving you you will be coming with me I don’t feel to bad I couldn’t leave you!! But still it won’t be the same just me and you all day long doing as we please! We’re going back 3 days so we stil get our time. We’re lucky to have taken so long off really with it being my business. 
So we’re enjoying our last month of freedom! We have the wild life park to look forward to at the end of the month with your cousin who you love to watch a lot!! 

You have found your feet these last few weeks and constantly play with them and put them in your mouth, you also love pulling at mummy’s face and pulling me in for kisses! You do this to the doggies to!! 
Your smile is infectious it melts my heart over and over again!! I could watch you all day lon, I could watch you sleep all night to your always so peaceful and elegant. I love our sleepy cuddles when your not figgiting you also just want a mummy cuddle and if o put you down to soon you wake up and give me the most beautiful smile so I scoop you up and cuddle you some more!! 

Your the most amazing thing to ever happen to us. I love you so much. 

Your favourite place while out and about in the sling close to mummy!! XXXX

Mummy xxxxx

    
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Christening day!

Yesterday was our baby girls special day her christening day. Sunday 27th September 2015 at 12:30 at St. John’s church. Thea was 25 weeks old to the day. The church is special to me as it is where my grandma had many links when she was a young girl and even where she met my grandad. 

Having thea christened was our way of thanking God for our special little lady, after she arrived early and our pregnancy scares we knew we were lucky to have such a healthy happy little girl. 

We chose her God parents people who we feel will always be here for her and guide her should she need their guidance or support. My best friend Elly and her partner Darren, my sister Gemma, Nathan’s sister laura and Nathan’s friend Bobby. 

Thea had been poorly with a cold but she didn’t let that stop her having a lovely day. She looked beautiful in her lovely dress that she borrowed from her cousin Olivia. 

Thea already really looks up to olivia she watches her so much I know they will be great friends through life. 

The church was full of family and friends all there to celebrate with us our special little girl our Thea Paige. There was so much love in the room for you baby girl. 

Thea loves water and liked having the water on her head, she got  upset because she really wanted to get in and wanted the water. 

After the lovely service we went back to the ski centre for the party, they did a lovely buffet of hot and cold food, and the children had a good time with the toys and balloons before heading out onto the slope for a go on the snow tubes. 

We had a fab christening cake made for you but as we are dairy free due to your allergies mummy got me and you a special dairy free cake you stole mummy’s piece and was enjoying eating it and didn’t want to let mummy have any never mind have it back. I wish I had taken a photo of you enjoying it so much! 

You had some lovely presents of everyone everyone was very thoughtful in the gifts but for us it wasn’t about the gifts we wanted you to be showered in love. I don’t want you to care about who buys you what I want you to care who spends the. Time with you. 

The party and whole day was fantastic and you seemed to enjoy it having cuddles with some of your favourite people. 

Mummy has rambled on enough now. I will now go back to enjoying our sleepy cuddles, this is simply the best time when I cuddle up to you at the end of the day, soaking up your love and that baby smell. 

Love you always my princess. 

   
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
 

24 weeks 18 weeks adjusted

Well today your 24 weeks old, next weekend is your christening and I just don’t know where the weeks are going. They seem to just be flying by in the blink of the eye! 

I love every second with you even when your fighting your sleep like right now! Your blowing raspberries and making gummy noises watching your sensory light lying on me and although you should be sleeping as your tired I’m just enjoying watching you! 
We’ve started swimming lessons something I wanted to do as I loved swimming and want you to be safe in the water from a young age and be confident. 

You amaze me everyday, you do some thing new or different. Your smile just melts my heart as soon as o look at you and you smile that’s it I’m putty in your hands! I love your smile! 

You give them most amazing snuggles, while you sleep I know I should put you down to sleep but I just can’t resist to cuddle with you.

Your now starting to try food and you seem to really be enjoying it you’ve liked everything you’ve tried so far! You particularly love strawberries! And ice Lollies when your teeth are hurting! 

We’re just starting to get you into your 3-6 month clothes there still a bit to big really but there to cute to wait any longer. I love every second I get to spend with you! 

I love you baby girl 

   
    
    
    
    
    
    
 

20 weeks old (14 weeks adjusted)

wow 20 weeks old where has the time gone! It’s been the best 20 weeks of my life, I never knew I could love someone this much. Her smile melts my heart. 

We’ve had a rough 20 weeks I guess but we’ve taken it all in our stride and had some amazing days throughout. Thea suffers from reflux and so can be sickie and in pain. She also suffers from a dairy intolerance and so we’ve given up dairy as I still breast feed at first it was tough but seeing her pain free it is all worth it. It was so hard and upsetting seeing my baby girl in so much pain! I mean hadn’t she been through enough already. 

We’ve been keeping ourselves so busy going out and about experiencing new things even though she’s to young to understand and ever remember I love taking her to places and sharing the experience with her. This weekend we went to Yorkshire wild life park it was fab she was looking at the animals and they had a bang less firework display and band she loved watching the band with the lights and the fireworks! 

Thea is such a smiley happy baby girl, everytine I look at her and smile she smiles back and melts my heart. She loves our dogs and they love her they lay beside her and give her licks she watches them so much. 

Thea is getting so strong she’s sitting up well in her cosy mouse ring, and manages to move around her play may, she loves sensory lights and music. 

Thea really loves the bath she goes crazy splashing she kicks her legs so much and soaks me through! 

I love watching her sleep, I could watch her all day long! I love our sleepy cuddles. 

Love you to the moon and back my baby girl. 

Time just needs to slow down now! 

   
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
 

My little superstar now 14weeks old 8weeks corrected

well my little superstar is now 14 weeks old (where has that time gone) 8 weeks corrected. Our nicu journey seems so long ago now but each day I’m reminded of that. And filed with the sadness that I didn’t get to take my baby home straight away or get to hold her straight away or have her with me like other new mums. 

This birth has defiantly left me with scars from that, the guilt of having to leave my baby in nicu while I went home I hated that so much I was there might I add 8am until 9pm ish every day but even still she should have been with me 247. Other mums and even none mothers don’t understand that heart ache and some say such stupid things like at least you got a good nights sleep! I mean really I was waking every 3 hours to express for my little baby and hurting from not having her there to feed and even when I did actually fall asleep she was all I could think of, was she ok, was she asleep, had she fed ok, were the nurses holding her to soothe her if she needed it! 

Now at 14 weeks old family have been pressuring me for weeks and weeks to leave her with them and go out and my answer no I want her with me she’s my world now where we go she goes I don’t need to go anywhere without her. Whether this is normal for all mothers or just prem mums I don’t know but all I know is after having to leave her I’m not ready to leave her by choice! She makes everything better when I’m with her, so I don’t always get to eat the meal hot but who cares her smile makes up for that she comes first and I won’t leave her yet. I know I wouldn’t enjoy the time away anyway so what’s the point 

I love you Thea Paige to the moon and back. Our start to the journey may have been harder but now it’s amazing, our bond is amazing, your smile is amazing, your cuddles are amazing your just amazing! 

Xxxx 

    
    
    
    
    
 

Our first family holiday

were just back from our first family holiday, 

We went to Whitley bay with daddy, Koby and Maddie. On Monday 15th June 2015.

You was very good on the way there and slept. We arrived and had a wander on the beach with the doggies and dipped your toes in the sand 🙂 then we went swimming and you enjoyed that 

The next day we went to another beach at St Mary’s light house and the played mini golf.

Wednesday we met up with Anne and Brian kobys old owners they got you a teddy miss mouse. Brian is poorly. In the afternoon we had a little walk with the dogs on the beach. 

Thursday we went to the aquarium then me you and Maddie went and had fish and chips on the beach and a little walk round. Me and you then went swimming to 🙂 

Friday was coming home day we decided to go to South Shields and have a look at the beach there and the amusement park before we came home 

We had a lovely week xx

Love you princess  

                                                                                                                                           

9 weeks old 3 weeks corrected.

well baby girl what an amazing 9 weeks it’s been, I knew it would be amazing but I didn’t imagine it would be this. You’ve shown me so much love I never thought possible it’s so different. 

We’ve had so many busy days visiting auntie Elly for lunches, seeing Sam and Harrison for pottery painting and play dates. 

We’ve spent lots of time with nanny and olivia and auntie Gemma when she’s not working. We’re off to foremark for a picnic with great grandad tomorrow. Mummy still hasn’t really come to terms with great grandma not being here anymore and some things you do reminds me of her so much! 

You are amazing. We are going on holiday next week with our doggies to whitely bay to see the seaside and have a nice family week.
You’ve taken to sleeping in mummy’s bed a lot we love our cuddles and you love being close to mummy which mummy really loves I love that you want to be with me as much as I want to be with you! 

The nicu darkness is well behind us now it seems ao much in the past our time together has taken that time where I had to leave you away. I still won’t leave you though after that. Mummy doesn’t want to leave you why would I we belong together for asong as possibly anything I can do includes you or I’m not interested in going!

Your so spoilt mummy keeps buying you new clothes and toys. Lots of little things for you to interact with and enjoy like a mirror and rattle toys. 

I got you a violet bear which is cool as it should say your name but doesn’t say yours yet so we have to have sweetie pie until they update the system and a glow worm you love your glow worm it always seems to settled you when your in your car seat and not 100% happy about being in there.

Today we had you weighed and your now 9lb 6oz your growing so well and so quickly time needs to slow right down!! 

Now I’m going to turn off the phone and cuddle up with you! Love you with all my heart my beautiful amazing baby girl Thea xxxxx love mummy xxxxxxx 

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

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8 weeks old (2 weeks corrected)

well my little premmie baby is 8 weeks old! 8 weeks ago she entered the world wow that’s gone so fast. 

She is doing so well she’s grown and growing so much 8lbs she weighed last week.

She is such a mummy’s girl, she has me wrapped around her little finger settles to sleep so well on me even lying on my tummy or legs but as soon as I move her bam she’s awake and wanting me again! Can’t say I don’t love that though she needs her mummy! I never thought I would I always said no I won’t spoil her to much I want her to sleep on her own but after our starting journey I can’t help but cuddle every precious inch of her as often as I can! 

We’ve had the best few weeks we’ve experienced swimming which she loved she was so relaxed and content in the water on mummy. We love our baths together to. 

Tomorrow we start baby massage and have a busy week catching up with friends and family 🙂 

Gosh I knew love with my hubby and dogs but I can tell you I never knew love like this this love is something else! 

I love you more every day Thea Paige 

Xxxx

The birth of my baby Thea Paige.

On Sunday 5th April at 4am I woke to that feeling I knew straight away I was bleeding but didn’t realise how badly I rushed to the bathroom and it was heavy the worst I’ve had.  We called an ambulance as I went light headed and weak. At the hospital things slow down alittle so we waited for the doctors to come round an hour later though I started to bleed again and started with contractions. The doctor came in at 9:15am and decided it was time to take baby girl out the risk to us both was now higher. Although I knew this was always a possibility that she could come early the idea hit me and I knew she’d be in neonatal and we wouldn’t get to hold her straight away and all those things we had hoped for. All I could do was cry! But I was going to meet my daughter today.

At 9:45 we were taken down to theatre where I was preped for surgery the midwife warned us that baby might not cry when she was born but not to worry, of course this was my worry. The spinal wasn’t as bad as I expected and I was soon lying their being cut open. At 10:24am I heard the most amazing sound my baby girl cried as she entered the world that sound will stay with me forever and I cried with relief. The midwife showed her to us and whisked her away to neonatal to get her checked over. We decided after seeing her little face she was a Thea. Thea Paige born 10:24 am weighing 5lb 6oz at 34 weeks and 2 days. 

I was taken to recovery and asking about my baby girl constantly they brought me a photo and said she was doing ok and was in an incubator to help her alittle. Nathan was able to go through and meet our little girl shortly after. Which is when I started to ask when I can see her. I knew I needed to wait to be able to stand but I still asked as soon as I started to get some feeling back I called the midwife to take me through it was about 3:30pm I couldn’t wait to see her and touch her. 

She was doing great by this point she was still in the incubator but not on any extra oxygen our little superstar. Then I was told the news I could have the first cuddle wow that was the most amazing moment in my life holding her and smelling her. She was perfect. 

It was alittle much after the surgery and I felt faint so had to go back to lay down. As soon as I felt well enough though I was ready to go back and see her again it was about 6:30pm and she had been moved from the high dependency to a normal cot and in a side room 🙂 yeh my little angel. We had some more cuddles and these were fantastic holding her close to my skin was just the best feeling ever I didn’t want to leave but again I got weak and faint so had to go back to bed. 

6am I was back with her expressing and ready to feed my angel and hold her or day long. 

She was doing so well and started to show an interest in feeding 🙂 I decided to express mostly and use a bottle so the nurses could feed at night while i slept on the ward and she cracked this by the Friday at 35 weeks gestation. The Sunday one week old we got the news that we could stay in the flat and start our transition to home amazing. Tuesday we were allowed home 🙂 the best feeling ever leaving the hospital with our baby girl doing so well. 

She’s doing amazingly feeding so well and gaining weight. She loves her mummy’s Milkies and drinks so much. 

I’m totally in love besotted with her and it was definitely love at first sight! 

My amazing Thea Paige xxx